Wednesday, December 17, 2003
Man, I just wish I could work on this story. It could be so good if I sat down and worked on it!
Unfortunately, everything is hectic and crammed from here until the end of February--and only then if I'm lucky.
I wish I could take a few months off to sit back, relax, and do nothing but write--all day, all night, until my fingers bleed.
I have so much inside of me. What if I die? So very much will be left unsaid. I can't do that. I have to say things. I may not be remembered as a scientist, as a famous scientist, but I have things to say to the world.
I was going to write a version of the bible. My religious take on life. That would be interesting. I would hope that people would follow it, because it's blazing. The bible of christianity was written by men, believed to be the word of god by them but still influenced by what they were, when they lived, and what the mores of the time were.
Mine would also be biased, but I think it would be more sensical. Less of the, 'We're all doomed, we're all going to burn, unless we beg this holier than us to forgive us, everyday, all the time.'
Some people CAN'T do that. Are they unforgiven? I don't believe that.
I believe that all are forgiven, no matter what--I believe that our only punishment is that we also have to forgive ourselves. That's the hardest thing to do--to look at what we've done, really face it, really see it, and see how wrong some things we've done are, and then realize they were wrong and forgive ourselves.
I don't care about free will--no person consciously, willingly, vocally chooses to go to hell. No one wakes up one day and says, it would sure be a great day to go to hell today. I WANT to go to hell. I WANT to suffer like that.
No one chooses that. Not even sadist/masochist people (I can't remember which is which). Nobody.
ah well. I thought I told myself I wasn't going to get into religion.
Go read Book of Whispers. It's much better. You even get to learn a little bit about Tasiha, and my REAL story... :D
Unfortunately, everything is hectic and crammed from here until the end of February--and only then if I'm lucky.
I wish I could take a few months off to sit back, relax, and do nothing but write--all day, all night, until my fingers bleed.
I have so much inside of me. What if I die? So very much will be left unsaid. I can't do that. I have to say things. I may not be remembered as a scientist, as a famous scientist, but I have things to say to the world.
I was going to write a version of the bible. My religious take on life. That would be interesting. I would hope that people would follow it, because it's blazing. The bible of christianity was written by men, believed to be the word of god by them but still influenced by what they were, when they lived, and what the mores of the time were.
Mine would also be biased, but I think it would be more sensical. Less of the, 'We're all doomed, we're all going to burn, unless we beg this holier than us to forgive us, everyday, all the time.'
Some people CAN'T do that. Are they unforgiven? I don't believe that.
I believe that all are forgiven, no matter what--I believe that our only punishment is that we also have to forgive ourselves. That's the hardest thing to do--to look at what we've done, really face it, really see it, and see how wrong some things we've done are, and then realize they were wrong and forgive ourselves.
I don't care about free will--no person consciously, willingly, vocally chooses to go to hell. No one wakes up one day and says, it would sure be a great day to go to hell today. I WANT to go to hell. I WANT to suffer like that.
No one chooses that. Not even sadist/masochist people (I can't remember which is which). Nobody.
ah well. I thought I told myself I wasn't going to get into religion.
Go read Book of Whispers. It's much better. You even get to learn a little bit about Tasiha, and my REAL story... :D
Friday, December 12, 2003
I got a guestbook. check it out at the Book of Whispers site.
